What Exactly Are You Doing?

It is Saturday Night. Most of people in my age are doing their things. Having a date, going to movies, and so on. Well you can’t judge me by sitting in one cheap local coffee shop and writing a post on my own blog all by myself, everyone has their own craving and hobbies, right? Right. And I prefer thinking about something rather not important, such as this thing that I would like to share here.

So, lately, I have been asking myself this question:

What are you doing, exactly, Vyt?

No, it is not a rhetorical question. I have been wondering what  I have been doing for the past 21 years of my life. I have been busy with my research lately, and yet, I feel like I’m just hanging out pointlessly in this world.

You see, I have been living my life normally for 21 years. I am not an ambitious person, and I am not an inspirational person. I haven’t done something splendid or something significant like winning something or joining something big. I haven’t done something inspirational either. For example, I have always been digging English since Junior High School and yet, I haven’t gone abroad to actually practice my English, that, is one of the examples. Another example is, I keep myself updated with news around the world, famine issues and global issues and yet, I haven’t done anything to be involved in it.

So my point is, I’m starting to question about my existence in this world. What exactly am I doing? What am I going to do? 

Again, 

What exactly are you doing, Evyta?