Another Milestone

This is a very late announcement, but anyway, I have finished my master's degree, folks! Yeah yeah I know, it has been roughly a month since my oral defence, and I had plenty of free times but somehow I did not spare any time to sit and write one of the most important milestone in my life on this platform. No excuse, I probably just suck at blogging. Boohoo.

Oh well yeah, after 2 years of going through this hard phase of "continuing my study but still broke as fuck" phase, I finally finished this degree and I am ready to get an actual job and make an actual money.

Now, you probably think, 

"when did you start your thesis? you have never even mentioned it here, duh"

Oh well, I kinda did give a hint on this on my post here but I didn't specifically mention that I was doing my thesis. Well anyway, thesis was waaay hard than the final project I did in undergraduate degree, which to be honest, I thought was the hardest. It was way hard in a way that I really started from scratch from looking for the company as my thesis' subject and identifying the business issues and eventually did tons of literature studies to come up with the solution that uh, anyway, had to be proposed to the company which means that the things that I wrote had to be applicable and make an actual improvement for the subject. Pft. Sometimes I wonder, how did I do it? Still questioning about it myself, folks. 

Looking back to the first time I enrolled for this program, I did not know what I was doing. What I know was I couldn't rely on my achievement at that moment and wasn't confident enough for the qualifications that I had. I needed to add my values. So off I signed up for this master. Half the program, I was even lost more than ever. But life always finds its way, eventually I knew what I was doing, I know what I want to do and I know how which part of this abundant of knowledge that will take me further. I found my way.

I am glad that its over. I am excited to enter the new phase of life that I have been waiting for this past 2 years. However, on the other hand, anxiety is creeping from behind and lurking from afar. Now that I will try to get a new job, I will have my own earnings and savings, there are so many things I need to learn and so many things I have to adapt myself into. Again, so many questions are starting to emerge,

"Will I be able to survive?"

"Will I be able to learn and grow?"

"How if I fail and suck at my job and get fired?"

Sometimes it goes too far,

"How if I die alone?"

Escalated quickly, I know.

I do, too, realise that now matter how scared I am and ready or not, this is happening, this is actually happening before my eyes and I have to walk right into it. For you who are reading this, whoever you are, please do wish me luck, since I could use some of that. 

Have a good day!