Things I Could Not Say In Person

Hi. How are you? I see that you are already back home. I hope you’re safe and sound. How are things going? We haven’t really talked in a while, have we? I remember the first time we talked to each other, it was almost a year since that day.

We drifted apart, didn’t we? We were never that tight, but you have been so popular, it seemed like everyone was your friend, including me.

Do you still hang around with him? I hope you don’t.

No, this is not about me. This is not about how you think I liked him and I started the war because he’s yours. I have never intended to. I have never wanted any of that.

I know I made you insecure at some point to the extent that you thought I liked him and I wanted him. I am sorry if I hurt you, I am deeply sorry. Please do know that I have never ever meant to.

You see, you are just 2 years apart from my biological sister. I see you as a sister, even when we barely exchange words. Even when you threw that nasty look or comments because you are so angry.

I genuinely hope that you can open your eyes soon. Then you will realize how precious and worth it you are. Whatever you both did in the past, whatever you did, whatever you are, you deserve better. I don’t know you very well but I know that you are independent and strong-willed, and you are smart. Traits that are not possessed by many women in this world. In his world. Please, do realize that you deserve to be treated better than that. Give yourself a courtesy and realize your self value. I hope you do realize that he has been treating you like a pile of shit. Like some sort of collections, he can pick and put down whenever he wants. Do not stick around for someone who is not brave enough to man up and says that he wants you, screws around every now and then but too coward to let you off the hook.

You are better than that.

You are worth it. You are something for someone. Please, do believe in that.

I hope you will live your life in an endless sprinkles of happiness.  

I wish I could say this in person, but you know I can't.

You know who you are.