It has been almost a year since the last time I posted something in here. Oh well, so much dedication for a blogger, eh? I know, I know. No excuse, nothing. I always have so much in mind but sometimes it is just too much to put them into words. I have lost it, folks.. I certainly have..
Well, life has been treating me okay these days. I have been going on the same thing over and over again. Classes and everything. Oh wait, correction, classes are over, the only thing I have to do is my thesis. Ah, yes, you might be thinking, how time went by so fast, eh? I feel it too. It feels like yesterday I just wrote my own experience going through several tests to get in, now I am doing my thesis? How crazy, eh?
I had a really nice trip at the end of 2017, though. A trip I have been waiting all my life. A Europe Trip! Well, for some of you, going on a trip is probably just, well, going on a trip, sightseeing, shopping, taking pictures for your Instagram feeds probably, and probably for some of you, going on a trip abroad may be used a tool to brag (a kind of advantage I don't see the point of). I did not have any expectation for this trip at the beginning other than going to Europe and see things I had always wanted to see. The Vatican, leaning tower of Pisa, Amsterdam Canal, beautiful intersections on the streets of Paris, Les Invallides, and so many more. Places and landmarks I had always dreamed of visiting.
But this trip turned out to be a beyond-expectation-kind-of-trip. Why? Let me break this down.
First off, I had always read and seen these places on TV, books, social medias and everything. I thought to myself, it would be nice to see them but I knew them anyway. But, well, this was expected though, it was still surreal to see them in real life.
Second, and probably the highlight of this story afterall, is how this trip gave me an overwhelming insight of how this world is endless. On how many places I haven't seen or visited. So many corners I have not yet seen. All this time I have been living in my hometown, under a solid roof, sleep under a warm blanket. I felt enough since I love reading books. I felt like I knew things. I always thought that with reading books, you can go beyond places. But no, reading and actually visiting these places are a completely different thing. It does a completely different thing to you and it gives a whole lot different perspective on how you see life itself. So many people we could meet. So many culture to adore. This life is too short to spend just in one place your whole life. World is endless, indeed.
My master life is ending soon. I get a little anxious everytime I think of where this life would lead me, what I would do, what the future holds for me. Seeing all these people with their working-life, my patience to go on the same pace is running low. I am excited to see what's next. So many things I could try once I finish this step.
Anyhow,
This thesis things is starting to get into my nerve. Its obviously different from what I did for my final assignment in bachelor degree. A little note though, I am so thankful that I get to work on things I'm passionate about.
I've lost my ability as well as my desire to write. This is probably due a shift in my head. I used to be a thinker, a heavy thinker. Which sometimes could be so overwhelming that I needed to let go by writing. I take things slow now, I have trained myself not to overthink and I have been doing well so far, therefore, I rarely feel the urge to write any longer.
However, for the last few days, I have come into a realisation that my life has been so much different this past year. I have become such a different person within 365 days (almost). Sometimes we don't realise our own milestone, what we have achieved, how our perspectives towards things have changed within a very short period of time. I often forget too. But then I know that writing could be a reminder. A reminder for how much I have grown. Or a reminder for what kind of person I used to be if I stray on the wrong way in the future.
I will, or should, start writing again, shouldn't I?
Lets see how this would go, will I be able to stick to this thought? Or is it just me bailing from the thesis I have to write?
Oh well..
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